Only when u r dead that u know how does it feel and I'm lucky that I've died once and revived in a psychological training course. When I were dead, I watched my funeral~~those who love me and those who I love all cried there~~I felt like saying sth. but I couldn't, coz I were dead. Believe me, u don't want to die. I also understand ur words, to some extent, I'm also not afraid of death, when ur sacrifice can bring the happiness of the majority.
There's one saying, if u r not afraid of death why r u afraid of living?