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aubonj

……今天下午我写了很多明信片，一边写，一边感受到对收件朋友的挚爱之情。我的内心充满了感恩和深情，很希望能拥抱每一位朋友，诉说他们对我来说是多么的宝贵，我对他们是多么的挂念。看来有点时候分隔会带来亲密，离开却想再见，寂寞促成共处！我觉得自己整个人，整个身体、思想和心灵都在渴望毫无条件、毫无畏惧、毫无保留地去爱、去接受爱。

我为什*么一定要想一想或说一些欠缺爱的事情？为什*么一定要心怀怨恨、憎恶、嫉妒、猜疑？我为什*么不能施予、宽恕、鼓励、劝勉、感激、赞赏？为什*么不能？

感谢上帝，我可以在自己的内心深处窥见永生的一瞥。祈望可以坚守心灵所见的真理，并充满力量向着真理勇往直前。

——卢云

aubonj

What will matter

Ready or not, some day it will come to an end. There will be no more sunrises, no days, hours or minutes. All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten, will pass to someone else.

Your wealth, fame and temporal power will shrivel to irrelevance. It will not matter what you owned or what you were owed.

Your grudges, resentments, frustrations, and jealousies will finally disappear. So, too, your hopes, ambitions, plans, and to-do lists will all expire. The wins and losses that once seemed so important will fade away.

It won’t matter where you came from, or on what side of the tracks you lived. It won’t matter whether you were beautiful or brilliant. Your gender, skin color, ethnicity will be irrelevant.

So what will matter? How will the value of your days be measured?

What will matter is not what you bought, but what you built; not what you got, but what you gave.

What will matter is not your success, but your significance.

What will matter is not what you learned, but what you taught.

What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion, courage and sacrifice that enriched, empowered or encouraged others to emulate you example.

What will matter is not your competence, but your character.

What will matter is not how many people you knew, but how many will feel a lasting loss when you’re gone.

What will matter are not your memories, but the memories of those who loved you.

What will matter is how long you will be remembered, by whom and for what.

Living a life that matters doesn’t happen by accident.

It’s not a matter of circumstance but of choice.

Choose to live a life that matters.

——Anonymous

aubonj

从巴黎到迈尔斯堡的札记


经过了长长的旅程，终于来到了阳光之州，佛罗里达。我现在希望能在此和神重新建立良好的关系。

旅途从冰天雪地的巴黎开始。当大雪将所有的路都封闭的时候，当肉眼已经无法再辨认去平时那熟悉的道路时，唯有靠那还长明的路灯，才能判断出路在哪里。就像在这个属地的世界已经完全让我们迷失的时候，唯有靠属神的光，我们才能找到道路。

在雪地里面的行走相当吃力，不过感谢神，到了我知道的那个一旦积雪结冰就绝对无法通过的陡坡前，神像开红海一般，当所有周围的路都是冰封的时候，唯有那条路是干的。我一路小跑下了陡坡，赶到了RER站。

在巴黎机场寄出好几封明信片，也把我的钥匙寄了出去。

雪飘在巴黎的任何一个地方，包括一些人的心里。耶稣啊，你是我们的中保。虽然当时，我还是带着一种放逐的感情登上了同样冰封的飞机，甚至不太期待飞机的顺利飞行，但是我现在知道神真是时刻爱我，和我同在，而我也要转向祂，重新找回我们之间的美好关系。感谢神。

飞机在巴黎逗留了超过三个小时，最后在震荡中起飞。漫长的飞行让人头晕眼花，也让我将那本陪伴我的旧本子写完了最后一页。在剩下的时间中，我也将《安息日志》的冬之旅一直看到了当时那天，就是说，从11月1日，到12月21日，这两个仿佛有些特殊的日子。

飞机最后终于抵达休斯顿，窗外是那一望无际的干燥泛黄的草原。在德州酒吧里面继续我的写作，并且又写了两封明信片，可惜邮局就在机场出口咫尺50米外，而我无法触及，因此，来自巴黎RER站的明信片，和这两封来自休斯顿的明信片，都只能等到明天抵达佛罗里达的迈尔斯堡时，才能被寄出去。

等待虽然没有尽头却并不漫长，因为我在写作中度过了不少时光。这些写好的东西，其实并不都造就人，我甚至连我的树洞都不会放进去。我只想等到一切都真正过去后，才翻回来看看。毕竟此时，我是需要重新建立我和神面对面的关系的。

晚上10点半，我到达迈尔斯堡了。温暖的家，多么惬意……



我们不可爱这世界过于爱神。感谢神，赞美神。

aubonj

Soulmate is someone who God sent you, as it is not of this world.
The love of Soulmate surpasses the love of this world, as it should be a gift from God.
If the love of soulmate does not merite the heavenly giftings, how could we call each other Soulmate.
But one day, God will accomplish his greatest deed to anyone who loves him, in Lord, the Souls will be Mated. From then on, the most beautiful and everlasting connexion will be established with God's pleasure.
O Lord, great is thy faithfulness.
O God, thank you a lot! Please confort her.

aubonj

aubonj

Be still, never let go, Jesus's ever lasting love is with you.
Bless you, my friend in faith.

aubonj

“……我们首先一定要将我们的主权交给神，我们一定要相信，一定要先祷告……”